When did I become so paranoid and insecure?? Everytime a female whispers within a 30 mile radius of me, I assume I've upset someone and I'm being called a bitch for it... I generally go out of my way to NOT upset anyone so need to calm down before I give myself a hernia!
I had a bad day today. CANNOT believe JK is considering leaving work. I CANNOT get through a day without him making me laugh and nor do I want to. It's almost as bad as if OH told me he was leaving... he's not, thank goodness! Had ANOTHER drink with OH tonight, all in secret as always, there was an awkward moment by my car after when we said goodbye and didn't really know what to do. I know the next stage is kissing but I'm SOOOOOOOOOO nervous! I can't understand it, I ADORE this guy and he's just exactly what I need right now but I'm petrified. I think I'm scared he and Clare will get back together and I'll be put to the side again. I need to tell him how I feel so drinks tomorrow night and all will be spilt!
My MG sold today. I lost SHIT loads of money on it and I still owe mum outstanding finance which I was hoping would be paid off but I'm not getting enough for the car so now I have to pay her back £4k. I'm thinking £250 a month but it's going to take a while... HATE oweing money to my parents! Must do as many parties as possible to make as much money as possible and get it all paid off asap. I can't really move out until I do that so that's my priority!
I hope everyone is happy and night to all :-)
L x
