I've spent the past 2 days trying to accept the fact that my year and a half relationship is over... and I'm destraught.
Yes we are different and yes it's been difficult lately but I really wanted it to work and would have done anything.
I'm struggling to cope at the moment, moving back to a single room at my folks doesn't feel like home. I feel like I don't belong anywhere and it hurts.
I want to work things out, he doesn't... typical.
Everybody keeps telling me things I already know: "It's his loss, he'll regret it, you WILL move on, you WILL get over this, you WILL love again and MORE" - I know all of these things but for now, I hurt like I've never hurt before.
On the positive side, I'm on the heartbreak diet.
On the negative side, I'm supposed to be going to New York with him on Wednesday and I won't be going. Instead I have 2 more weeks of working in the same company as him with everybody knowing what's happened, on the verge of tears all the time and Wed-Mon is going to be so difficult when we should be on the plane together and we're not...
Why isn't love enough... why isn't wanting to be together enough... why is it that it HAS to be about the future... :-(
17/03/08 @ 16:09